Tadpole (x3) and a Toad.

I found this toad on the way up from the community center today. It was really, really awesome. David and I went down there to catch tadpoles (which are also here), and we caught two of them. I can't wait until they're all grown up. Seriously, they're so big! They're already growing their legs in.

But, then again, I'll probably set my toad free after a few days. The tadpoles will have to stay, considering I'll just feed them - like - fish food or something for the next week or so until they're fully grown. They eat that, don't they?

... APPARENTLY SO.

I should probably find a better-suiting home than an apple juice bottle, though. My toad is currently living in a strawberry box - the see through kind with the holes. I put duct tape on the bottom and filled it with rocks and dirt, and even a little pool of water made out of tin foil. I should probably get a better home for it, too. Maybe even fill half of the aquarium with water and the other half with rocks. That would work, right?

Speaking of tadpoles, Jeni had her baby! It was a boy, 7'7'', 20 inches. I was so proud of her, but I haven't gotten to hold the baby yet, so I'm going to go over there tomorrow and talk to her while probably playing with baby, or just holding him. He's so adorable, and probably will be even more awesome since he won't be all red and goobery from the just-been-born thing.

It's so warm out right now, I'm sitting here in a shirt and short-shorts, no shoes and on my laptop looking for a babysitting thing I could manage. I would enjoy doing babysitting, probably about once a week or so, and get paid pretty well for it. I really love kids, too.

Alright, back to finding people who need their kids babysat~

Always, love,
Alex

P.S. -- THERE ARE SO MANY FUCKING BEES OUT HOLY GOD I THINK I'M GOING TO DIE. GO. AWAY. BEES. I DON'T LIKE YOU.

Sims 3

 Aaalrighty. So, I'm still down in the cities, and we didn't go batting today, but we had a ton of fun going around shopping for groceries, and I had the best burger in my life, courteous of my brother!

So, tonight we're babysitting for the two parents as they're out visiting a friend, and Logan's asleep, Emma and mom are watching a movie, so I'm writing, and playing Sims 3. I decided to take a few screenshots for you. <3

David & I in bed

 David & I doing our things

 

David & I being... cute?

 Okay, David, what are you doing?

 

OH MY GOD WE'RE GETTING MARRIED.

Yeah, that's right, I'm the man in this situation. |8

But, um, yeah. xD I love David so much, and we're going to save up our money so we can get a big house for all the kids we're going to have... But first we're going to have one in this house, and I don't know what to name it.

I'll post more picture when the wedding party is going to happen, so expect more pictures. xD

Update #1

"Updates" will be journals on how I feel - if you don't like hearing about teenage depression/if it makes you angry, turn back now. It's gonna be pretty bad/sappy.

Lately, my boyfriend David has been coming over to see how I've been doing, since I've been sick two days out of the week already: Monday and today. He is... too perfect. I'm not worried about him cheating, or being a complete bastard, he's nice and he knows what he's doing in everything he does, he's a virgin, he doesn't care what I look like, or if I'm sick, he offers me rides in the morning, he's good to both my parents, he's favored by my sisters to my previous boyfriend by a lot, he would do anything for me. You know that song "Grenade" by whoever? Yeah. Yeah, he would do anything for me.

And what do I do for him?

I get in trouble with the police. I don't realize quickly enough that I'm hurting his feelings by talking/being too friendly with my other guy friends, so that he has to step in and intervene, tell me what I'm doing wrong. I don't go to school because I get sick because I don't take care of myself. I complain about how I look. I dress like crap because it's comfortable. I feel so uncomfortable in my skin and tell him every day that I'm gross and don't like myself.

And every day, whenever I tell him those things, he always tells me I'm beautiful, and he always tells me I deserve all that he gives me, all that he does for me.

Damn it all, I wish I could believe him. Sometimes, I just want to force myself into this, into his caring arms. All I can do, though, is just want to return to my lonely hole, with not a single smiling-David-face around. He's like, sunlight, and I'm like a vampire. It just doesn't work.

But I want it to work, so badly. I just... eugh, he's so perfect. He's the betterment I've always wanted, and now that I have it, I realize how comfortable the suffering has gotten. I feel better in his arms, but I feel at home, alone in my bed at night. I guess... I will have to learn to get used to it, slowly, baby steps. Ya'know?

Gods, this is going to be really tough.

I've Been Better

Then again, I've also been worse.

Today, I'm staying home sick because I puked this morning. Ooh, that sucked. My sister won't even touch me now, which is hilarious to tease her about, but other than that, it's quite sucking to be me at this moment in time.

At this time, I am riding a sheep. On Harvest Moon: Animal Parade. And his/her name is Killer.

I'm a boss.

A boss that is totally addicted to this game.

Pond

David and I went up to these two giant pinds today.

We saw a duck.

And saw Lucy, a dog.

And deer.

Oh, and we also took my dog for a walk.

Yep, that's about it.

Where do you like to go to relax?

Can't Deny Mr. Foxie

My favorite animal, and why:

My favorite animal is the snow leopard, because it's one of the rarest cats, and it reminds me of me, because it lives in the middle of fucking no where with lots of snow. <3

Last night, my boyfriend and my friend came over (the friend slept over, happily) and we drove around, went to the playground, the baseball field, and drove around... everywhere. Then, we went up my hill and watched the stars as we laid on my boyfriend's shitty VW, manual, 1990-something car. But, it was warm, and it was nice, so it wasn't so bad, I guess. Actually, it was one of the best nights (sleeping-wise as well) I've had since I've come back.

He went to his uncle's, who lives in town, so he could come over earlier to help me put up my shelves, like we had planned earlier this week. So, he should be here any time soon, while Leah is still asleep. She's taken my favorite pillow and my second-softest blanket and decided that she'll sleep until noon if she pleases.

I really don't mind. She's adorable when she sleeps.

My little sister is up and moving, and Leah seems to be awake now, so I must get my cover-up on after I wash my hair (because, fuck, do I ever need it) and possibly even shave. But, oh well, Emma just went into the bathroom. She'll be out in a second, I hope. She takes showers during the night on the weekends.

Also, last night starting around 10:30, we started watching Fantastic Mr. Fox, and amazing story that is my second favorite of all time. My first is Fight Club. We got finished with it around midnight, and that's when David (boyfriend) left to go to his uncle's. And that's when I went to bed

But now, I have to go take a shower.

What is your favorite Girl Scout cookie?

Chocolate Bunnies

The answer to the question last post: 

9.

Today I'm hanging out with my friend Leah, and she's eating all of my Easter candy. But, I am letting her, because I love her and missed her so much on my "adventure". She and I usually do this, where we sit around, watch movies, and be on our computers drawing together or writing. But I can't say it's not fun.

At school earlier, it was another fantastic, yet draining, day. But, I came back to my house with my sisterly lover and my boyfriend gave us a ride, and now we plan to go make bracelets after we go get the supplies. I can't wait.

Another question! I shall make this a thing:

What is your favorite animal, and why?